A baby bump retrospective

I seem to have gotten so big that people HAVE to acknowledge me in public. Recently at Safeway an employee was in mid-sentence when he paused to say to me as he passed “wow, you sure do have a bun in oven. Good for you.” I was so startled I didn’t know what to say – I just took my Annie’s Mac and Cheese and made a run for it.

Earlier, during that same grocery shopping trip, a pregnant woman asked me how far along I was. I replied, “only three weeks left”. She countered with, “I have one.” “Week?” I asked, confused. She was one week away, and quite a bit smaller than me. I couldn’t believe it. I asked her to clarify because I was sure she meant months (and even that would have surprised me). But no, this tiny, dainty pregnant lady was full term, ready to pop. She couldn’t have gained more than 20 pounds and there I was, having just passed the 40 pound mark with three more weeks to go!

In the parking lot yesterday a woman felt compelled to comment to the man she was speaking with (when I was only a good five feet away), “Wow, that woman is really pregnant.” Glad to know my size can no longer be ignored.

I remember when I wanted so badly to have this giant baby bump. Now that I have it, I absolutely love it, but it’s a complicated love. At least sometimes it can be. I don’t mean to be ungrateful, because I’m not. I guess nothing is as simple as you assume it will be.

After I posted my 35 week pictures last week I thought I’d do a comparison post of my belly shots so far. I started late and haven’t been great about doing them, but there is definitely enough to see a significant change. Here they are:

20 weeks

23 weeks

26 weeks

35 weeks

Wow. It really has grown. I can’t believe I didn’t take one picture of my belly between 26 and 35 weeks. I definitely regret that. But at least I have a few from different moments in the pregnancy, and that is what’s important.

BUENAS NOTICIAS – 8 days left of school with the students – 9 school days until the end of the year!!!!

35 weeks

I can’t believe I only have 5 weeks until my daughter is due to join us. I can’t wait to meet my little Isa!

BUENAS NOTICIAS – We went to our Pediatrics and Newborn/Infant Care class at Kaiser last night. It was very amusing watching Mi.Vida practice putting on diapers, onsies and pajamas.

26 Weeks

I know I’ve been a little down lately but I wanted to share something fun. Here are some picts of my baby bump at 26 weeks! A photographer actually came to our yoga studio yesterday and took professional shots of those of us who signed up. I’ll be getting my favorite for free and I promise I will share that when I do. For now, I have some amateur shots Mi.Vida and I took after the real photo shoot.


Buenas Noticias – After a lot of rain this past 2.5 months, we had a beautiful weekend. It was great to be out in the sun.

My 20 Week Baby Bump

I realized recently that I have been very bad about taking belly shots. I did get one a while ago, at around 17 weeks, but I didn’t have much then. I took one again yesterday and it is pretty good so I’m going to include it on here. Yay! I’m at 20 weeks and I finally have my baby bump. I do think it looks like a baby bump, and not a “beer gut” as one friend said to me (I was NOT PLEASED by that). Anyway, here is my baby bump, at 20 weeks.

I so wish I had taken a picture in the early weeks to be able to compare, but alas, I did not. Maybe next time, if I’m lucky enough to have a next time.

It’s raining in the Bay Area again. It’s making for a very quiet, sleepy, unproductive Friday afternoon. I have so much to do but I just can’t bring myself to do it. Maybe after this I’ll get out those stacks of papers that should already be graded and posted online for progress reports this week. Maybe. 😉

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

BUENAS NOTICIAS – Mi.Vida and I went on an impromptu dinner date last night and it was very yummy and fun. I hope we do that more in the next 4.5 months.

Returning

I’m on the couch with my cute little Squeaks on my lap, being super cuddly. I love this cute little Squeaks so much. She brings me so much joy and peace and happiness. She came to us after our ectopic and brought us through a very rough place in our lives. I will forever be grateful to our Squeaks for the love she brought to our house.

I’m sorry I’ve been gone for so long. After feeling the effects of the very intense blog-o-sphere, I decided to take some time off from it for a while. I stopped reading blogs and I stopped writing in my own. I have to say, it was difficult, but good in a lot of ways. I’m tentatively returning, trying to figure out how to be a part of this community without it taking over my life.

On the pregnancy front things are going great. My baby belly continues to grow, though I think to the general public I still just seem chubby, and not pregnant. That is fine with me, but I look forward to having  a really, round baby belly sometime soon.

What I do have already, and quite early I might add, is feeling the baby move. I started feeling pokes at about 16.5 weeks, but wasn’t sure it was the baby until 17 weeks. After that, I was sure what I was feeling before was in fact Frijolito. Now I feel him/her ALL THE TIME and it’s always a wonderful, amazing surprise that brings me joy and peace of mind. I’m SO THANKFUL that I’ve started feeling him/her early, as each poke assures me that, for the time being, he/she is okay.

And speaking of the he/she question, it should be answered this Thursday. I have my anatomical scan ultrasound this Thursday at 9:30 and if Frijolito cooperates we will be finding out the sex of the baby. I think it’s a boy, and so do my students (who knows why) but I’m SO CURIOUS to know for “sure”. We shall see soon.

This weekend I went to Vegas with 19 other women from my work. It was a purely fun trip, and we had a great time. I obviously didn’t do as much as others did (drinking and partying late into the night) but I did get to see Cirque du Soleil’s O (indescribably extraordinary) and went on an amazing hike in Red Rock Canyon. It was a great time and I’m happy I went.

Today was not so great. I got into a car accident and while everyone was okay (and that is the most important thing) I’m left feeling very uncertain of my own driving abilities. I wasn’t tired, or messing with my phone or blue tooth, or browsing my iPod or doing anything like that. There was a big van parked to my left and when I looked for cars coming I just didn’t see any. Then I pulled out and there was a car right there, and we ran right into each other. It was totally my fault, and I don’t know how I can assure it won’t happen again. Now my car is messed up and my insurance rates are going to sky rocket. I haven’t had an accident since high school and I drive a lot. I just feel so lame and upset that this happened. I feel like I’ve lost faith in myself and my abilities.

I’m not trying to complain about my little accident. It sucks but it could be so much worse. I’m thankful it wasn’t a bigger deal. My life is great right now, and I’m so thankful for all I have. I’m just feeling a little worried that something like this will happen again and the consequences will be more serious.

I’m sorry I haven’t been around much to read, write or comment on blog. I promise that will change in the future.

BUENAS NOTICIAS – I have a short week this week. No school today and no school Thursday (taking the day off for my ultrasound). I can’t argue with that.

Cleaning House

I wish I had more time to write today, but I’m sure I’ll get in some blogging while up in Bodega Bay. We’re staying in an amazing room at this Inn that sits on a cliff hanging out over the water. Surrounded by high cliffs and crashing waves on three sides, it’s a really beautiful spot. We got a good deal because my friend’s dad owns the place. I can’t wait to get away and leave all the stress of home behind.

Today my mother came to help me clean my apartment. My therapist says I should accept help when it is offered and today I did just that. My mom has been amazing. She has not said one disparaging thing the whole time, even though my apartment is totally disgusting. She cleaned places in the kitchen that haven’t been touched in years. We even got the toaster oven to sparkle, and let me tell you, that thing had a really gnarly layer of black all over it.

My mom did the kitchen and the bathoom. I cleaned the living room and office, plus I swept and mopped all the wood floors (except our bedroom which is still in shambles). I feel pretty good about what we’ve done and it will be heavenly to return to such a clean apartment on Sunday. Plus my in-laws won’t think I keep a disgusting house when they come to watch the cat this weekend.

I feel like I have so much more to write but no time to write it. I’m still waiting on my genetic screening results. I was really, really hoping to get them by today but no dice. I hope, hope, hope I can them tomorrow and they ease my anxiety a little bit.

In the past few days my stomach has started to pop a little. I finally see the little baby belly that I’ve so longed for budding above my pants. Suddenly, on Monday, my stomach just felt different. Sitting in my car I noticed it, and then walking home from dinner I noticed it again. I feel like I sit and carry myself in a distinct way now. Even though it’s not much, and an innocent bystander would never know from the look of it, I can see the change and I love it.

I also swear I’ve felt the baby move a few times. I know it’s really early, but three times now I’ve been sure what I’ve felt is Frijolito (and not flatulence). They say it feels like gas, and it certainly does, but it’s very sudden and quick and has a slightly different quality to it. I love it when I feel it. And while I know it might just be remnants of yesterday’s lunch, I enjoy it when it happens.

I know tomorrow is a loaded day for most (all?) IFers. It’s impossible not to ponder the losses of the past 12 months and wonder what the next 12 will bring. I hope to write more about that tomorrow, before we ring in the new year.

BUENAS NOTICIAS – My mom cleaned my apartment today – just because she loves me. I hope I’m that good of a mom to my children.