My daughter used to be up for just about anything. She went on her first roller coaster ride at two years old (she has always been tall for her age). She used to love playing in the water and getting thrown into the air and doing things that made her heart race. It seems those days are over. The older she gets, the more fearful she becomes. She will hardly go near the water these days. She doesn’t even want to be sprayed. Washing her hair is a nightmare. She doesn’t want to go on rides that she loved two years ago. She refuses to do a lot of things that she used to think were fun. I’m not sure if it’s because she’s older so she’s more aware of the risks and dangers of things, or if it’s something else (the fearfulness started when Monito was born, so maybe that transition started all this?) but it’s gotten to the point where I hardly recognize her. She’s not the daughter I thought I knew, I feel like I’m being reacquainted with her every day. It’s strange and a little disconcerting.
I guess I’m just wondering if this is normal. Do four year olds do this? Do they become fearful and then grow out of it? Or is this who she is going to be? I suppose it doesn’t matter. I will admit, I miss the girl she used to be. I’m not quite sure how to handle this new fearful child and there is a part of me that hopes the girl I knew will come back. I know I shouldn’t have those kinds of expectations of my children, and I’m trying to let them go. Oh these kids, they certainly keep us on our toes.