In the past week my work nightmares have continued. I’ve had three super stressful dreams about going into labor before my sub plans are ready.
Last time I didn’t have to worry about having my plans ready before my daughter came; she was born at the end of the school year and I had all summer to get my stuff together for another teacher to start off the next year. This time I need to have a basic outline of lesson plans prepared for four distinct classes, along with explanations of the basic procedures I’ve put in place. It’s a lot to do and if it’s not done before the baby comes I’ll have to get it finished in the first week at home with my son, which will be really, really hard.
I finally started my maternity leave binder yesterday. I’ve only done the most basic things, like make a lot of copies of the seating charts and grade record sheets I use. I started an outline of my Spanish 6 chapters. I’ve ordered the teacher edition and assessment program for a textbook my 7th and 8th graders are going to use (I don’t use a textbook but it’s much easier to have a sub use one than explain my system). I’ve marked down all the topics my study skills class has already learned and gotten the resource binders ready for that class. I’ve also gotten the ELD materials out from storage and have them together for the sub. It shouldn’t take too long to get the rest of the binder in place. I hope that once everything is ready I’ll feel a lot better about possibly going into labor sooner than expected. I just want the horrible dreams to stop.
Preparing to leave work really does create a lot of added stress at the end of pregnancy. I think leaving a teaching job is especially hard because you have to have so much in place for someone to take over and there isn’t really anyone else at the school who can fill them in if you don’t have the proper materials prepared. Added to the daily planning of my classes and the organizing I’m trying to do at home, it’s just about pushing me over the edge. Hopefully if I work a little bit at it every day, in a couple of weeks I’ll be done and I’ll stop having anxious dreams about leaving before I’m ready.
And…I just got an email from the woman who is supposed to be my long term sub saying she may not be available any longer. She’ll let me know on Monday. And cue super stressed out dream…