I have written so much on here about trying to keep my weight gain under control during this pregnancy. I have decided that I’m done with that, with the obsession and the anxiety about weight gain. Every time I write about it I say that what I really want to avoid is feeling too big and tired to effectively take care of my preschooler. So instead of focusing on how big I’m getting I’m going to focus on how strong I feel. Right now I feel pretty good, physically. I mean, of course my hips hurt and my back aches and I have heartburn and my hemorrhoids have officially “arrived” and are here to stay for the remainder of my pregnancy, but physically I feel strong. I can sweat it out for 45 minutes on the elliptical no problem. I can walk five miles (at what I currently consider a fast pace) with minimum hip pain. I have done an incredible amount of work in my yard, hauling heavy bags and pulling out hundreds of yards of grass. I’m obviously in good physical shape, despite having gained almost 30 pounds. I am capable and I feel as good as I could hope to feel in the final trimester of my second pregnancy.
I will be 30 weeks on Tuesday. I’m about 10 weeks away from meeting my son. It would be awesome if I could only gain another 10 pounds in those last 10 weeks, but it would be even more awesome if I could keep doing 45 minutes on the elliptical three times a week and walking two times a week and going to yoga once a week. It would be awesome if I could chase after my daughter without needing to rest every two minutes. I absolutely believe that if I keep up my exercise I’ll be able to pick her up when she needs me until the day I go into labor and that is so much more important to me than any number on the scale.
So I hereby declare that I am done focusing on my weight. In fact, I will not write about it again until this baby boy makes his way into the world, and I’ll only do it then so I can have a record of how much I gained. Instead, I’m going to focus on what I’m doing to stay in shape and remain strong for the final months of this pregnancy. Because really, strength is what is most important, not size, and I’m determined to remember that.